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I act differently around different people. Mind you, I'm not fake. I just have my own comfort zone. That's why I only can completely be myself when I'm with people I'm comfortable with.

duhhh !




LOL ...

Hey. Stuff happens. People will change. Your best friend will become your worst enemy. You will fall to pieces, and wish you never existed. You’ll have new regrets and new mistakes. You’ll fall in love, and he’ll break your heart. You’ll argue, and cry yourself to sleep. There will be some days when you can’t drag yourself out of bed. You’ll look in the mirror and hate what you see. But things will get better. Every time you fall down, you get back up. You grow up a little more with each mistake. And no matter how hard it may seem, remember that this is only a chapter of your life. Life goes on.

I tried so hard

i’m always a mess. i can never keep my own secrets. 
i laugh too hard at stupid things. my favorite songs 
can make me cry. i always watch for 11:11, but i miss
it more than i notice it. i live in the past, in the 
memories i have with the people i love. i hate thinking 
about reality and i’m heartsick for all the things 
that i can’t get back. its hard for me to define myself.
i guess i’m just a cliche — the girl who loved too hard
and didnt get anything in return. i dont want to be 
the heroine in some tragic love story, i just want the
one person who has never given me a second thought.

Meet her!

She's Liz :)

I tried so hard but thing seems to be so awkward ,I can't handle it ,but yes I can do it.

It's just small matter right? no big deal ...

I'm being so down recently but when time flies I'm another person

I have this funny thinking these afternoon I wanna try it

but everytime I told myself I wanna try end up stupid thing happen again :/

the stupid me ever

I make mistakes. I have regrets. I hate being alone. I`m always late. I hate school. I don`t like being wrong. I hate being ignored. I cry. I`m shy. I have enemies. I can`t sing. I laugh way too loud. I can`t look anyone in the eye. Many things just seem to get to me. I`m not perfect.

I'm not perfect and no one seems to be perfect

People said I’ve changed so
much. Well here’s the honest truth,
I grew up. I stopped  letting people
push me around, I learned that you
can’t always be happy; I accepted reality.

I love writing, I love opinions and quotes and expressions. It’s so beautiful to know that you’re not alone in this messed up world. It’s relieving to know that someone else feels the same way you do.

I`m the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows. Who will listen to a love song & see his face. Who will look for him wherever she goes. I`m thetype of girl who doesn`t get over things easily. Who will beat herself up when someone doesn`t love her back. Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she`s not good enough. I`m the kind of girl who can talk to a total stranger about anything & everything, but I can`t tell my best friend how much I`m hurting. I hate not being invited to parties only cause I feel so alone, & I can`t understand how I don`t have many friends. I`m the kind of girl who can pick herself up, & I can switch my feelings in a minute.But I`m also the type of girl who`s strong.Who can cry her eyes out then forbid them to come back the next morning. Who will blast some old pop song & sing at the top of her lungs cause she feels like it. Who will be no one but herself.

the feeling is so awkward right?

excuse me? Those are past tense :)

I'm grown up  :)

A broken heart is like broken glass; it is better to be left broken then to hurt yourself trying to fix it.

There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can`t. What you`ve got to do is turn around and say"watch me."

welcome to my life :3

Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong ,And no one understands you, Do you ever want to run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud .That no one hears you screaming. No, you don't know what it's like ,When nothing feels alright, You don't know what it's like To be like me... To be hurt, to feel lost. To be left out in the dark. To be kicked when you're down .To feel like you've been pushed around. To be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you. No, you don't know what it's like. Welcome to my life! Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more ,Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies, While deep inside you're bleeding...No one ever lied straight to your face and no one ever stabbed you in the back .You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be ok .Everybody always gave you what you wanted. You never had to work, It was always there, You don't know what it's like...

I try so hard and get so far,in the end ,it doesn't even matter :)

Hell yeah I heart this to the max...

the reason why I love tumblr is because everything they post was just about what I'm trying to express ..

people leaving me one by one I don't care :)

people hate me one by one non of my business

people tend to find reason to hate me

and yea I know why :)

I keep it for myself and I share it to my sister.

and we burst into laugh cause we know the reason WHY?

duh ! :/

after all these year everything was just so fake to me :)

I've said sorry and the apology wasn't acceptable so yea I gave up :)

I don't tie friends up with me and I never force them to be with me

I've tried so hard to be myself and people can't accept about it

you're just finding a reason to leave me :)

so you said it's been long time you wanted to said that ..

so yeah the words " It's been long time I wanna said these to you ..."

in the early time I've sense everything :)

I'm lucky that I'm strong and independent enough to walk away ...

dare to dream :)

dream isn't a wrong thing ...

after dream and plan about it ...

dreams do come true :)

I din't choose my road but God choose it for me that's why I'm happy !

Maybe friendships aren't meant to be saved. Maybe we're meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people then move on.

whenever true friends look at me :)

they won't ask why cause they knew it and told me the same thing

MOVE ON babe ...

cause of the reason is so silly it made me laugh like nobody cares !

Is a very tough thing for others as if all your use to call best friend leave you one by one :)

but wasn't a tough thing for me cause I understand and things happen for a reason ...

by the time I would be proud of myself for not letting my parents down !

I feel like going Melbourne to study :/

Idk why ? :))

TEHEEEE caoz peoples ...

xoxo 

I feel lik I wanna .....

I have no one at this hour ...

sis sleeping and I wish to talk to her about my feeling

one by one leaving and who else?

thank you :)

I never feel hurt anymore ,numb !

I don't wish to know why any more ...

everything was so clear :D

I understand now ...

picture just describe how I feel :)

I'm strong enough to walk away

Don't ask for someone opinion IF YOU CAN'T TAKE the HARSH REALITY.

Tears drop for once again cause I just realize I live in other people's lie for these few years.

I'm gonna open my eyes bigger and fear on one

ain't gonna waste my time for other stuff *I'll just keep that for myself

sigh ...

6 more days and gonna graduate from high school :)

no regret and nothing else left

thanks for giving so much memory in the school :)

thanks for being my friend all the time

for those who can't accept me ,goodbye :)

I don't lie all the time,I'm just telling the truth and people can't accept the truth

as if I need to lie,I need second lie to cover up my first lie.

as if I need t wear a fake mask to face everyone,I might be wearing all the time to face everyone

*why should I need to?*

I don't fucking wear a mask and lie to people around me ...

sister told me I should use my time to do other more important or valuable things instead of trying so hard to make everyone accept me .

Sorry I don't owe anyone apology and thing.

Thank you for spending time reading my blog.

Like it then stay,don't like it is non of my business :)

I say♥

爸爸告诉我

人要懂得独立，不要依靠任何人

自己没本事，什么事情都是假的！

Daddy told me

Humans must learn to be independent ,don't ever depends on others

as if you don't have the will power and wisdom,everything could be fake !

.____.?

TEEHEE =D

back from OU today ,bought 2 clothes in PULL and BEAR

I always get pissed whenever I enter the shop cause the service was like a piece of shit,it's like the customer owe them money !

Srly like need to fire all the worker,but today no need to see those shit faces :)

and yea get to buy 2 clothes,it's like so unfair why GUYS clothes are cooler than girl?

sometimes girls are more cooler right?

as if my dad trees grow money I'll just buy the whole company such as Pull and Bear,forever 21,top shop,cotton on,Zara ...what else?

more to count :D

I wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad !

I need to save more cash for Christmas shopping :D

I'm selfish so I won't simply buy gift for friends :D

bwahhahahaha at least you wanna exchange gift with me you'll be surprise :D

Maybe this year gonna celebrate Christmas or Christmas eve at Christie house again

it's like every year I at her place :D

L4D2 for srly right mei mei?

Finally me and Fluffly :)

what a retarded face -.-" I hate you lohh !

 eeeeeeee so cute ! who is this?

Mr.Elephant !

Isn't it adorable?

Mr.Fluffly's best friend .... awwwww Fluffly LOVES to BITE elephant -.-

FLuffly was busy biting it's new bone made by milk

puppy loves them right?

It's new bag so next time we can bring it out along with us:)

on it's bed got his toy (elephant) and milky bone

what a happiness dog ever -.-" 

Picture of today :)

back from OU

wearing my new boyfriend tee from Pull and bear !

ouchhh heart paining cause cash nearly finish T~T

oh yea it's almost 5th Nov means salary coming soon ! TEEHEE :D

thanks papa mama :)

after SPM I wanna work for srly !

I want more money !

more clothes

more new shoes

more heels

more more more and more...........

I wanted to tell share everything deep inside my heart it's killing me all the time

but after telling someone how I felt all the time

I'm so over it !

I just told him ...

I don't know why after telling him my sadness was like released ...

Wasn't the first time

it been awhile

it keep repeat it's like a habit for them,er I mean someone :)

I wanted to be straight forward :x No I always being straight 

what's the matter?

I don't get it all the time ...

there's something happen

the news spread like thunder ...

then I use to get some kind of weird msg appear in my old blog chatbox last time

it's like non of their business right?

Is that a wrong to do that?

there's always a reason why but I always don't get a simple reason

the reason always the same " Ying Li had changed "

Don't ever aspect me to live the life that you guys aspect it will be 

I'm not a game or toy

go get a barbie and decide what life should the barbie get

I remember I've tried so hard to get through but always end up got kicked out so hard

It happen now as well :)

no doubt ! It always happen for the same stupid reason :)

they hate me for the same stupid reason as well :)

Don't ever dare to say it out loud I never care about their feelings it's like telling lie to the world without thinking others know the truth ...Don't ever try so hard to hide the truths cause the more you hide the more lie appear from your mouth.I don't fucking live in a drama world . What I want is simple and reality !

I don't owe anybody anything

All I ever owe was my family ...

parents spend so much money,time,love to bring up my life

catch me whenever I fall ,pull me from the darkness to the brightness place,wipe away our tears,try every single thing just to make us happy ...

friends around you don't owe you things you know?

as if you don't even know how to appreciate what you got then don't complain about others and judge !

thanks for the BITCHY name for me :)

I know I'm Bitchy and I admit I'm selfish 

since people around me being so selfish so why should I even care about?

Don't care about my feeling I'm so gonna NOT give a fuck about your feeling as well ...

fair and square ...

spread news like thunder why not post it out on newspaper so people might know my name as well :)

It keep repeated the same stupid thing that's annoyed me the most

I was like what the ?

any idea what's my feeling?

awesome ... !

see I'm posting something stupid again :)

and yea I'm not afraid of others think I'm stupid 

cause I've been through that and it's like non of my business

you will never be good enough for everybody..but this is for sure, you are the best for someone who really appreciates you..

it's hard to assume your position on somebody's life. so learn to weigh the situation, Know your stand :)

parents sometimes get headache about me

I'm a stubborn person

I don't listen to thing I don't want to listen

something that call other people's feeling ...

But I'll choose to listen or not listen ...

I.dont.fucking.wasting.my.time.here.type.all.the.craps.cause.everything.was.the.truth......

November

Just realize it's November now

iiisshhhhhhh :/

interesting day today

I helped my sis to cook dinner

thanks to the sis made everything super oily end up I'm washing everything

actually I got nothing to blog

I lost the mood to blog :/

IDK why :(

let's see my baby fluffly !

should a dog sleep in this way?

wondering ....hmmmm...

don't act pity cause no one will pity you !

HAHAHA so cuteee !

ILY Fluffly :D

I should blog tmr :/

This is so fluffly :D

Meet my new baby toy poodle :D

isn't it adorable with it's tiger costume?

awwww :3 with his new bed as well :)

His name is FLUFFLY ♥

This is so fluffly and I'm gonna die xD

swtttt nevermind :)

it's just 1month ++

It came to the world on 27/9/2010 

came to our new home on 1/11/2010

wanted to get Pomeranian, but end up get Toy Poodle :)

he's my sweet little thing :D

Hope it won't grow bigger ,HAHA !

phewwww

the feeling is so awkward 

I don't know how to say :x

it's like errrrrr ...

hmmmmmmm

school gonna end right?

I wish to end as fast as possible but at the same time I'm not willing to let go everything

it's like 5 years in high school was fucking fast 

am I gonna miss them?

yes or no?

hard to say cause I can't forget what I felt before

so I'll just let go 

there's college life right?

I got no idea why I wanted to go oversea to study :/

awkward right?

I was so thankful that I have him ♥

I find him and told him all my craps and thanks for being their to listen and give me some advice ;)

I'll find you next time 

bwahah since you promise you willing to listen my craps hope it doesn't annoy you !

GOOD LUCK weih you know lahh xD

  ♥