cried

ever since I came back from national service

I cried for most of the things I've done

I cried when I played my piano cz I can't really play in a proper way and most of the skills and song I forgotten

I cried when I saw my face look so pale and so sick

I cried when the very first time I saw my nose bleeding

I cried whenever I ate medicine for so long and so much

the very first time I leave far away from home alone and I tried to stay strong

Im not blaming others but blaming my own antibody being weak enough

but Im proud of myself being strong enough to handle everything by myself

but not to mention about the sickness

I been sick for almost 3 weeks gonna be 4 weeks

after came back to KL my sick became WORST

I need doctor man !

I fucking need a doctor !! WTF :"(

people love my skin tone and I got no idea why !

it's like orange colour not consider dark ok -.-"

im not trying to consoled myself but im just telling the truth

one thing I hate about was my head and body was totally in different skin tone !

GAHHHHHHH !!!

I've learn

should be proud to say I've learn many things during national service camp

I met many different kind of people

people that came from different places

different races

different face *of course*

I learn to accept people and walk away from those whom I dislike

I tried to communicated altho is a very hard job for me as my BM suck to the max

I learn to speak out everything directly 

I learn to try everything as long as I can

I took part in every activity :D

awesome games 

work hard for the team and learn to support other team

learn to love each other

we're the games and the teachers are the coaches 

we learn not to fight for silly things altho that's always problem appear

learn to see humans heart within few days * true personality *

learn to accept the fact that what people think of you

two things I never regret was being with BRAVO team and room number 6B

people tend to approach you when you got benefit

learn to protect yourself

trust those who believe you

ignore those who ignore you

don't try to push so hard just to make others like you

you got nothing at last other than people hate you

that's what I've learn during a month

having those friends were like knowing them for so long altho just a month

I want nothing but a good health =)

so I can enjoy more in the camp :D

latest me ;)

spot it?

my face darker than my arm ... sob sob 

Happy Bunny Year & Im back

Happy Bunny year humans

It's been awhile my last post

I went National Service as everyone know duh !

at first I wasn't ready for everything

I was afraid

parents sent me to Bangunan Zetro

tons of humans around there

many families sent their child there

sat in the bus and my tears drop after saw my parents went home *sobsob*

reached airport (KLIA)

there's girls guessing Im chinese or malay

after knowing Im talking on the phone with my mom

they tried to approach me and we started to become friends

my first picture before leaving KL

reach the camp ,my first reaction was so fucking down and kinda disappointed

I was like FML to the max why I got chosen

I doubt that okay?

so after throw everything into my wardrobe then I went to find my new friends

I don't wan to be alone since there's only 3 of us in the room (new faces)

me and my friends were separate in different room

after few hours only I arrange my stuff

few days later my wardrobe became messy like seriously !

is a must for everyday

I spend lots of money there keep buying food for no reason cause I can't stop feel hungry

with my class uniform

Saturday and Sunday will be free

meet Hwa the sporting one :)

and the adorable one who loves to CRY !

she's a tough girl as I can say :) (if she stop crying)

behind is my mummy Conny :D

we called her mummy cause she does look like a mother

she's my room mate as well ,sleep next to my bed

Li kwan the shortest one and the sweet one

me, Mandy and Pooi =)

we love to hug each other and attack Mandy by kissing her

meet ah Pooi the 2nd tallest girl in the camp cause her height 175cm

she's the sweetest person ever who have sweet voice *erhem*

the botak

they're funny people and good people

this photo suppose to be serious one but end up they making peace pose on my head -.-

the chinese fella who wore songkong xD

everyday is a must xD

the crowded 

enjoy the video :)

glad that I met them :D
they made my day awesome :D
we talk whatever we want without using brain !
LMAO awesome :D
final conclusion I BECAME DARKER !
congrats me -.-"
toodles :D