cried

ever since I came back from national service

I cried for most of the things I've done

I cried when I played my piano cz I can't really play in a proper way and most of the skills and song I forgotten

I cried when I saw my face look so pale and so sick

I cried when the very first time I saw my nose bleeding

I cried whenever I ate medicine for so long and so much

the very first time I leave far away from home alone and I tried to stay strong

Im not blaming others but blaming my own antibody being weak enough

but Im proud of myself being strong enough to handle everything by myself

but not to mention about the sickness

I been sick for almost 3 weeks gonna be 4 weeks

after came back to KL my sick became WORST

I need doctor man !

I fucking need a doctor !! WTF :"(

people love my skin tone and I got no idea why !

it's like orange colour not consider dark ok -.-"

im not trying to consoled myself but im just telling the truth

one thing I hate about was my head and body was totally in different skin tone !

GAHHHHHHH !!!